At One Point

I felt things are going slow around me. Sometimes too fast for me to keep up with. At the back of my head, there's something pulling my mind all the time, bugging me, about things still undone. Being an impatient young man, I started searching for those undone businesses at the back of my head. And found that it's not possible to get it done by now. Not so soon at least. Be patient, I told myself. Look, you still have a long way to go, take your time, slow and steady. You will get there when it is time.

Confused

I'm so bored. Why so? Because I'm such a boring person. Although I have many things to do in my things-to-do list, but I felt like I have no power to work on it. I don't know why. I'm so confused. And why am I writing rubbish here wasting my time?

I have goals written, plans to follow, and also some alternative plans to reach my goals, but...where is the motivation? Somewhere along the line, I felt like I lose interest in my goals and life. I live my life day by day, wondering for an answer. An answer? For what? A purpose in my life maybe? I really don't know.

I'm still searching for something. Something I felt it is important for me to work for...

But how am I going to go on like this? How long it will go on like this? When will I find the clue? Someone please tell me..