Confused

I'm so bored. Why so? Because I'm such a boring person. Although I have many things to do in my things-to-do list, but I felt like I have no power to work on it. I don't know why. I'm so confused. And why am I writing rubbish here wasting my time?

I have goals written, plans to follow, and also some alternative plans to reach my goals, but...where is the motivation? Somewhere along the line, I felt like I lose interest in my goals and life. I live my life day by day, wondering for an answer. An answer? For what? A purpose in my life maybe? I really don't know.

I'm still searching for something. Something I felt it is important for me to work for...

But how am I going to go on like this? How long it will go on like this? When will I find the clue? Someone please tell me..